Recently I’ve been reading a lot of biographies of people. One’s I’ve read in the last year are:
Michael J fox, Lucky man
Mick Foley, Have a nice day
Mick Foley, Foley is good
And I’m about three pages off completing David Blaine, Mysterious Stranger. So I guess your wondering why I’m telling you about my reading habits? Well I was suddenly hit with something last night at about 3:16 am when i got onto the last chapter of Dave’s book. That’s how little drive I have in my life.
When you read a book about someone else’s life you realise all the different things they’ve achieved, and that they deserve reach their goals. The commitment some people put into their lives is amazing. I always figured I was like that, but in truth I’m no where near that.
Take me for example; I want to be an actor. I’ve been to college and studied drama and performing arts for three years. So what’s the natural progression after college? University or drama school. Did I do that? Hell no!
No I preferred to let it find me because I went to a physic once and she told me I’d make it. Pathetic I know. But what would one of these guys of done? Probably moved to where ever the most opportunities would be and do it, no matter what the costs of sacrifices are.
I’d love to say that, I’m going to do that now I’ve realised I don’t have enough drive in my life. But I’m not going to lie to you, I wont. I know I won’t, I’m just not the kind of guy that writes a book about his life. Hell I’m not even the type of guy that has someone else write a book about himself.
You know I’d love to go to uni or drama school. But I’ve convinced myself that I’m too old now by the time I come out I’d be 27. And I suppose that’s enough to convince myself it’s wrong to go.
The only real acting job I’ve done since leaving college is and advert. And that was just extra work. I’m missing acting so much, I want to get back into it and make progress, but it all seems to big and so far away.
But I’m wondering is it? Am I just too bound by what my peers have done? The fact that they’re all earning money and have careers. That they’re settled and comfortable
Who knows?
